I need to make one thing abundantly clear. No one, and I stress NO ONE can ruin your happiness, your enjoyment or the like unless YOU allow them to. With that said, those whom have reached out to me, thank you, I appreciate it. Understand this, it was more about me, than anyone or anything else.
I do not see you as user names on the internet. I see you as someone whom I look up to as the big brother I never had and selfishly depend on to set me straight when I get out of line. I see you as someone who lost their father and suffered through a difficult marriage with an alcoholic. I see you as a parent who had to endure the pain and everyday fear that you may lose a precious child. I see you as someone who recently lost a parent and on the surface handled it better than I am. I see you as a person who has suffered many family losses, open heart surgery and financial difficulties who still smiles every day. I see your pride in your military son. I see you as a proud military person who lost a close member to your family. I see you as someone who offered me several hundred dollars for no good reason whatsoever. I see another proud military person who I mistakenly said a “your wife” joke to failing to realize your wife passed away. To this day I feel bad about that. I could go on and on… the point is … you are not some String of characters to me. There is a person behind that user name and I never forget that. And yes, there are moments I am weak and let it get to me that you do not realize that behind Zero2Cool is a proud father worried shitless of failing his girls, a son striving ever so hard not to disappoint his parents, an over protective big brother, … a person.
We all have trials and tribulations and how we handle them is of our own choosing and I choose not to disclose much of my personal life or hardships to anyone. They are mine and mine alone and I will resolve my conflicts on my own. I have a plethora of reasons behind this and I do not foresee anyone ever changing that. As the saying goes, fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me. I do not make the same mistake twice.