Okay, so some of you know I have a little girl that moved to Colorado with me, and she's now back in Wisconsin for the summer with her mother. She called me Fathers Day and basically begged me to put her in a different school. I was kind of surprised because the last thing she said was she was looking forward to returning to that school.
There were a few incidents with herself and the kids in the school and neighborhood. When we first moved here, she came home nearly in tears. I asked why and she said it was because no one wanted to play with her. I said why, why won't they play with you? She looked down and said 'they said its because im white'. I kind of laughed an said sweetie you'll be fine, just be yourself and they'll come around.
I'm a little ashamed I didn't pick up on this, but I noticed Keiana playing outside with a group of five kids, but she was about 6ft away. It never donned on me that they weren't including her. Instead, I would give her a hard time an say honey if you're gonna go outside and play... PLAY, don't just watch. Turns out, that's the closest the kids would let her be.
I decided that if things didn't get better after a few months when she comes back, that we'd move. Then a few days after we spoke, I got a letter from the landlord saying I had to sign a one year lease, or be out in 30 days. WTF! So much for the month to month.
When we first moved in, we'd get stared at quite a bit. I figured it'd dissipate after a few months when the neighbors got used to us. It hasn't stopped, I still get this dirty ass look every time I pull into my drive way. I know this is probably wrong, but it makes me really uncomfortable. I already have issues with "thinking" everyones watching me... this doesn't help.
So I decided we're gonna move to Fort Collins, CO. It has FAR better schools and a lot more attractive women walking around, running, biking, etc ... which will make me get out of the house more.
Now this past Sunday Keiana calls me up again. She right away asks "Daddy, so... when are you coming to get me?" I told her not until middle of August. She was pretty disappointed it wasn't sooner. Apparently she's grown tired of her brother, sister and mothers boyfriend to the point she doesn't want to spend another minute with them. She said "Daddy,... 'sigh' ... you were right, AGAIN!!". lol ... it sounded so cute. I had told her before she left that her brother an sister would get on her nerves, as all siblings do. She argued that it would never happen because she missed them so much. So I just said okay, just make the most out of your summer and don't let anyone ruin it for you.
She called me again yesterday, asking how the search for a new place was and if she could see the mountains out of her room, oh and I have to find a place that has a pool too because as she said "yah..umm daddy, those swimming lessons totally didnt work! i cant swim so i need you to teach me".
Poor little girl ... she doesn't realize daddy swims like a rock!!