Sunday, I was going to see my grandparents before I picked up Keiana from her mothers. Shortly before I was to leave, I decided that I would go this coming Saturday because then I’ll have Keiana with me.
Yesterday was Keiana’s Farewell concert for school. Shortly before the concert started, I was trying to pass by time and checked Facebook. My brother Damien messaged me saying Grandpa had a massive heart attack at 10:30am and was pronounced dead at 11am.
I should have went.
Grandpa Konrad died July 4th, 1974, six years before I was born.
Grandpa Dugan lives in PA and I never met him, and family seems to have moved on from him for whatever reason. I did speak with him on the phone briefly about a year ago.
Grandpa Shaffer was the only Grandpa I ever knew. He had a great sense of humor, always had jokes. He had a sarcastic side to him, but he was always nice. Well, unless you’re a little boy and tell him to “hold his horses”, he didn’t like that too much. He used to do this trick where he’d pull his thumb off his hand and it would freak me out as a kid. When mom would bring us boys over he would take me to the basement and we’d build these clunky wooden airplanes. They never flew too well and he used to laugh and say “we’ll try again next time”.
I can’t stop thinking I should have just went. Why the hell didn't I just go? What else did I do that was more important?