April 30th 2008 my phone rang at 6am. It was a call from my grandparents house. If it was grandpa who left the message, then something happened to grandma. If it was grandma whom left the message then I knew something happened to mom. I didn't return the call right away. I took a shower and spent that ten minutes preparing myself for what I would hear. I hoped it was grandma just needing something fix on her computer.

Yesterday my aunt barb sent texts, facebook messages and emails trying to get the Konrad family together for Christmas and assign who should bring what.

This morning I received a call at 6am. I leaned upwards staring down at my phone on the stand next to my bed. As I stared I thought 'oh no no, not grandma, no.... NO!'

I hoped it was just aunt barb being persistent with the Konrad family get together.

Grandma has passed away this morning just a few months after her 75th birthday and five months after grandpa.

Disbelief. Anger. Sadness. Fear.



When I was younger I would always respond to her with "whatever". For as long as I can remember she would sign my cards "love, whatever".



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aww i'm so sorry to hear this kevin. may she rest in peace & be a guardian angel for you & your girls.

Thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family Kevin.

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I'm so sorry Kevin.
My heart goes out to you.

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Sorry for your loss.

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I'm sorry for your loss. My grandmother died a year ago and thinking about the good times gave me acceptance. I had a lot of good memories and was thankful for the opportunity to have them. It's always hard, though, especially in the first few months. I hope the memories you have of your grandmother does the same for you.

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Sorry to hear of your loss Kevin.. there are no words that will help.. but it is the best I got.

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Pretty cool you had an amazing relationship with your Grandma. Just like the Dad thing, I envy you guys on a lot of that family stuff. Seems to me you should concentrate on celebrating her life and what you had with her than wasting time being sad. Death is just a stage of life we will all go through. Make peace with it Zero.

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Zero,

Sorry for your loss, prayers for you and your family.

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It's certainly hard, but remembering all the good times is definitely the only way to go. Sometimes it hits harder than not, but that's all one can really do. You can't wallow regretting you don't have more, you just have to appreciate the times you had.

At 33 it feels a little too early to have all the grandparents I've known all my life gone. I don't think that's a healthy way to think of it though. I prefer to think of it as for my entire life I had great loving grandparents whom I wouldn't trade for anything.

My Aunt Barb said she was really struggling the last six or so months since grandpa passed with the loneliness.

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